GeorgiaPeach01

My head is spinning. Bewildered by your words. Nauseous From the sudden 180. Can’t wrap my head around it. One Minute I’m enveloped in your arms Being passionately kissed And the next I’m alone sobbing in to my pillow. What was my crime? Did you care for me Or was it all an act? How can you walk away so easily? I must have cared More than I let on. Otherwise I wouldn’t have this much Whiplash.

Words ring like an echo in my head. Can’t comprehend Like they were spoken in a foreign language. Brain is not sending correct signals. Air escapes my lungs. Hard to breath. Didn’t expect this. Never saw it coming. Saline runs down my face Pools in my hands Only to be wiped away on my shirt. Sobs threatening to escape my lips But I hold them back. You sit motionless Silent. Away from me. I feel the wall you have quickly created between us. You are safe While I am utterly vulnerable. I can seek no comfort from you. You are as cold as ice.

I am tired. Tired of running. Chasing the unobtainable. I do it without meaning to. I'm already in over my head Before I realize How deep the water really is. So I end up drowning In a saddness That I have created. If only I would look Before I leap. Maybe I could save myself... When is someone going to chase me?

Days without food I no longer care for it. Just like you no longer care for me. Perhaps I will end up A skinny bitch like her At least I can control something…

Sleep evades me Though I am in desperate pursuit. The thoughts of you and her Together… Eat the rotting flesh That’s left of my mind. Feel like an elephant Is sitting on my chest Making hard for Oxygen to pass. Maybe it will just smother me. So I will not have to think of you again. Wear fake smiles Throughout the day At night they fade Like the sun. Pass by where we met. Feel pain in my chest. Stabbing pain And she’s holding the knife.

Part of me died yesterday. Sitting in Starbucks Reading words I never thought I would see. The fatal blow came from nowhere Hitting me straight in the heart. Direct Hit. Your aim was impressive. Death came quickly. It did not suffer. That is what the rest of me is for….

Lying on the floor Feeling as though my body Is made of lead. I can not move. My head clouded As tears continue to leak From my eyes Soaking the carpet Beneath me. Hard to breath. The weight of my body Is slowly suffocating me. I feel as though My head will break open, Spilling it’s contents‘, From the pressure. Part of me wants to die here So I will not have to think of you with her… But The other part Wants to pull myself from the floor To show that I can Make it without you.

Driving home on the highway Alone in the car, much like my life A journey of my heart and mind. The rain pounds on the windshield The wipers try fervently to keep up As if their sole purpose is to wipe away my shame The layer of water on the road rushes under my tires An attempt to sweep me away. Part of me wants to pull over To open the door and just stand in the rain And if it can't take away the pain It will be my attempt to flood my soul Maybe then my memories would fade And travel along with the small rivers of water To an unknown destination. But I stay with the restraints on my life That are holding me to my seat. My e

i asked my best friend, have you ever closed your eyes, everything goes black, and for a moment you wonder... when i open these, will i still see? will i see again? or just, dark lonely fuzzy shadows and soft blackness that way, that feeling you get when you rub them too hard... i asked her again, is love like that, and that's why you don't want to ever let go of an obsession, unhealthy but powerful, inevitable 'cause you wonder... when i let him go, will he still love me? will he love me again? or just, dark lonely

When all is lost the world moves on. The sun will rise and fall but there is nothing that can change what you have done. I trusted you with my secrets dark and deep and then you spread the word to the one I feared would hear them. When all is lost cry cry to the highest of powers: What have I done to deserve such a punishment?! And in responce a dark cloud appears over your head. When all is lost there is nothing left to give.